devourer of love

Monday, October 27, 2008

what a week it have beeen.
i was everyday eversince friday.
nan booked out at 12 noon.
so many things had happpened.

we even got time to do window shopping something (secret)
im sooo looking forward for that to happpen.
i wont count down the days as it would be longer.
i'll just wait and it willl come sooooon!!

we catched tropic thunder yesterday
together with naim and shasha.
it was gerek but corny jokes in there.
we had late dinnner at kfc and met skudai.
we started our bitching session over dinnner.
we conclude that she is the dummmest girl we ever met
and the they conclude that shasha and me are the biggest hypocrite ever.
yeap, what bo said is true..
to be your fren is to be the biggest hypocrite.

p.s.
i wanna help u but you're not helping yourself
i pity u.
but i cant seeem to stop bitching bout you.
everybody shares the same thoought as bout u.
look what u got yourself into over a guy.
not worth it girl.
and im glad u do not want the money.
i just hope you gt out of the shittyhole asap.
you guys gotta work harder to support each other's 'wearer' style.
kesian.

nan is booking in tonight.
at 9.00pm.
going to baby's house and then to ECP.
to join shasha, naim, shaz, kiki and amin.
damn, we cant stay long.
most probably..
baby coming back to my place to change and off he goes to HTA.

i cant wait to start earning money back.
at least it kills my time.
:)

i miss arique soooo much.
the hardship that our family went thru seeems so yesterday.
but its oready months.
i know you're no longer here.
its uselesss to keeep finding a replica of you.
that wont happpen

i just hope that the baby my sis is carrying is a boy.
its a gift from god.
maybe thats the healthier version of sharique.
but you know..
you're irreplaceable.
when i walk thru some toyshop..
without realising..
i would browse for toycars..
i know thats your favourite..
great urge to buy it for you..
but you're not here..

if only you're here.
im working extra hard in school for you
and for you favourite one and only umi.
keeep her happy so you're happpy tooo.
i just wish you keeep coming back into my dream.
i dread the feeling of waking up after seeing you..
i just wanna continue sleeeping,
being with you.
again..
i dont mind giving up everything to be with you.
you're worth the sacrifice.
nothing else matters, not even mom and nan.

welll..
ive beeen a real dimwit.

to shasha-
sorrry for being mad at you over our meeting in schoool.
maybe im just stresssed and tired out.
and for just walking offf without waiting for you and einnn..
i love you.

to sheila-
you've beeeen great bebeh.
no words can describe the sweetnesss in you.
i love you like helllll.
im sorrry if i ever hurt u in anyways.

to einn-
im superbly sorrrrry.
over the misunderstanding and the other day.
im sorrry for creating a scene and making u loook sooo stupid chasing me.
but i just never felt so stupid before.
maybe im overeacting..
i know..
tackle the problem, not the person.
im soooory for the harsh words.
i love you baby.

p.s.
a moron parking his bike
thinking that he owns the parking spacce.
extreme left: shaz's

extreme right: nan's

center: naz -_- haha.

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Thursday, October 23, 2008

well...
i had an early for the day.
i woke up at 530 and left the house round 6plus.
i met dearest shasha at aljunied and we made our way to tampines.
we reached eastview secondary at around 8plus.
the fellow instructors wre already there.
we were briefed on what to do and off we went to macritchie
i was paired up with din.
we were with 25pax.
it was a 8km hike.
superbly great!

my students :)

chibai leave (as din chooose to named it)

my partner, din :)

we then rushed back to schoool to have our event management lesson.
it was trevor, understanding as ever
let us in the rooom though we're like near 2hours late.
i bet the chinese girls are jealous of us.
haha..i wont elaborate.

after lessson ended..
we went to tampines for our reguler dose of bubbleteas.
bumped into some shits.
but i shalll not elaborate.
fucking waste of my time.
i reached home round 7plus.
what a day
:)

waited for my nan to ring me
and we chatttted for superbly long.
and...
nan gets to booked out early on friday.
usual time would be 630pm
but since they are having POP for their senior..
they'll get to book out at 12 noon.
haha..
and he could come and get me from schooool.
i love u baby.
you're the best :)
and i simply loveee those msges u smsed me when you're away..
it makes me super excited.
love you.

im seriously dissapointed with you.
i know u meantwhat u said and it don say u never bear any grudges against me.
cause you did.
i dont hate you, i love you and always treated u like one of my closest and best.
i never expect that to be coming from you out of all people.
but its ok. its human nature.
i thought we only bitch bout our hates but i didnt know you bitch bout your loves too.
if u love me, you wouldnt be thinking that way. i tot u understand.

on a lighter note; please dont go overboard with your words cause people have feelings too.

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fazzzy's post

Tuesday, October 21, 2008

fazzy's post

hey guys..
i finallly find the time to redo my blogskin.
i love this skin eventhough it totally ruin our concept of black and redd.
but its a touch of love from me and nan to each other and to you guys.
hehehe.

friday-
nan booked out at 630.
dearest naz and shaz waited for him infront of hometeam together with me.
god, that body...
the chest and the arm...yummmmy!
cute bald head.
we went to his place and yadayada.
we spend time together.
pampered with love
:)

saturday-
sentosa
pampered with love
i love u sooooo much
:)

sunday-
pampered with love
cityhalll with naz and shasha
shaila, einn and them accompany us to sent nan offff...
back to chalet.

monday-
damn!
fucking dissapointed or whad.
nan was given permission to leave his camp for his tml morning medicalcheckup
it was postponed to saturday
kiwak dier betol.
went for a job interview with my 3 babies and of course we secure the job.
hahahahaaaa

tuesday-
did mystery shopping for ad at giordano.
hahahaaaaa
i saw rasul at boonlay interchange waiting for his gf.
he got to booked out caue he got some back injury..
damn u!!!!
not my bf!!!
accompanied him till his gf arrives.
:)
im at home now.
misssing nan.
didnt meeet the girls.
idk, but somehow your words in the msg hurts me.
sending nan of cannnot be compared to 'lepaking'
i just dont wannna elaborate.
i love u though

now-
im tired.
im getting ready for tml's event with akasha and shasha.
im looking forward but dread the early morning and long journey.

-my love

-my baby
i misss you soooo much.
it has beeen dread without you
i love you so much.
i neeeed you love.
:)

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fazzy's post

Monday, October 20, 2008

taik betol laaaaa!!!

am now working on a new skin.

nan gave the greeen light to choooose the skin of my own preferance!!!

ok dammmit.

for the time being, taik ekh blog aku!

like seriously.

i wanted to privatise it..

but nah, its oryte.

ok...

looking forward to nan booking outttt...

looking forward to an event with shasha with the camelot.

hahaha...

and looking forward for money!!!!

kk, gotta work on my skin for the blog.

ohya..

i miss my nan sooo much.

i love u baby.

Sunday, October 19, 2008

my weekend has beeen a real blasttttt
but im tooo tired to update my blog today.
maybe tomorrow
after my movie date with nan.
:)
i love you baby.
mwah!

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Oni's post

Saturday, October 18, 2008

yeah! back from 10 days out of civilisation..ahah...as many have known..im oready in ns...enter a boy...n will leave more a boy..ahah..k diam...well aniwaes..ok it was fun la...1st few days was dull..dotno wat to do..wats the plan next and stuff..then the rest of the days was way better...got alot of lame friends... but honestly..i misses outside life..ahah...especially my fazy baby! love her alot...really alot...sory baby if i hurt u..sorie if u feel i dont love u..i do..really i do..aha..im just still in shock...im outside oready...after 10 days...but will be back in on sunday..ahah..o well..atleast it will only b 5 days..ahah.well..nuting much to say...all i want to say is i love my fazy baby! alot alot alot! mwah!

100th day i misss arique.

Sunday, October 12, 2008

today marks arique's 100th day
we had kenduri at home just now.
we love you
we miss you
you'll always be the sharique we adore soooo much
i misss you baby

*arique's first day of schoool (zulfa playgroup)

my sis said he smiled like shasha :)

i love his smile

he is supeeer cute.. :)

our last year pokok.. hahaha

arique and eqa

i have more pictures
but i wannna save it for other entries.
i just misss him badly.
only god knows how badly.

welll...thanks to din
handphone and foood reached mannan safely.
he made me waited for him for 30mins???!!!
i bought him biscuits, meegoreng instant, seaweed, sushi, marshmalllow

i know u love it.

i wrote him this lettter..hehe
and i actuallly kisssed it with my cranberry lipbalm.
nan said he managed to taste and smell..
hehehe, i miss your burberry tooo..
i cant take anymore..i misss mannan!!!!
friday!!

welll, while waiting for dearest din
i sat at the bus stop.
i saw some of my friends..
i saw fazli on the bike and izan
and also saw haikal in the bus..

i managed to meeet rasull, my kedai mama.
he always have what i wanted
i use to dread seeing him in cafe one
he would always disturb me with his group of friends.
hehe, never thought that he was a nice guy afterall
gerek k rasul.
HEHEHE...i misss you k.
always at town when im at cityhalll.
pantat la rasul.
heres him.
but i swear he loooks so smart and goood just now :)

ahw...i misss nan soooo much..

i love u nan

i miss u sharique

i love u both

p.s. thanks darling shasha for that heart warming message. i love u baby and i love u girls toooo. mwah.

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fazzzy entry

OMG!OMG!OMG!
5 more days to go!!!
ive survived the last 5 days.
though hardly surviving.
but i managed to go thru it..

tomorrow, im meeting din in the evening
to passed baby's sony ericsson and mine to him
his battery running low
im dead if i cant get thru him and would never go to sleeep without listening to his voice first
i'll also bring some foood for him.
kesian dier, mintak mee goreng instant and biscuit.
thanks sooo much DIN.
we owe u one big time.
hehe

i misss nan so much
monday schoool reopens
halik already boooked me for dinner with watie at popeye.
i try to make it.. in fact, i wannna come along.
monday comes, im just looking forward for friday
the day my baby boooked out!!!!!
i dont know what to wear!!
and i just wannna kisss and hug him tight.
gosh, i misss it sooo much
i miss your smell, your hugs, your warmth, your kisses and everything..
i misss u

i went out with my dearest gfs (shasha, einn, sheila, ad)
we went to ikhsan's cousin weddding
gerek pe ikhsan.
soooo much fuuun!!!
we den head to admiralty for a while and straight to city halll.
met nazee, shazy, kiki and amin.
just chilll around
sooo fun
but i wished i went offf with ad.
baby was oready expecting me to be at home or otw home.
im sorrrry, i shud have known bettter.
i went home alone straight away after my short conversation with nan..
im sorrrry dearest friends for going offf earlier then usual.

i reallly pitied ad.
she seeem so desperate
i understand how u feeel.
that never ending insecurities
feeling vulnerable
i just wish i could help
but im not sure how tooo
maybe your love for him is justtt tooo great.
goodluck baby :)

looking at my past relationships
at some of my fcuked up guy friends
at my gf who is suffering because of some guys..
im not bragging
but i cant help but to feeel sooo fortunate
to have a man like nan in my life.
why cant you guys be like him?!
k diam.

he leads me to the right path
he put aside his huge ego to make things better
he showers me with gift and endless time
i went home without him twice on my own?
the rest of the time, he would send me up till my door step
most importantly..
his sincerity/honesty towards me.
his love and care he has been providing
his wanting of being a better man to me.

"you've beeen great baby. you're one in a million. u left me for 5 days and i realised so many things about you. you are so great. words cant describe. i love you so much and im looking forward to spend the rest of my life with you. i love you nan"

phew..
tiring or what
i make two guys feel better
and i feel great myself.
i really hope nazmi goes to the right path and i hope fadli forgive me!

i cant sleeep now
im so wide awake.
today is arique's 100th day
how time passed.
but thinking bout it..
it seems so yesterday

ohya..
a bitch went thru nan's profile and mine too at friendster
nan privatise his profile..
i bet she is leaving him comment saying like
''booo...yada3..''
viewed my profile.
bodoh punyer pompuan.
i bet she is reading our blog toooo...
wadever kae.
like they all say..
i look way better then her..
you're ugly afterall..

ok faz, stop bitching
haha
k diam.

ok.
5 more days to go.
i love you
:)

(the older pictures)

Labels: faz loves nan :)

Friday, October 10, 2008

what A week for me.
im physically and mentallly shagged.
a three days entry starting from wednesday onwards.
i met sheila and einn.
we chill arnd.
did some shoppping with them.
and i have to rush off to meet my sister, mom and eqa at PS.

the next day
i went to meet the girls at sentosa.
we had little picnic
each of us brought some foood.
tooo many actuallly.
dearest naz and shaz joined us shortly.

we then head to vivo and had our dinner at KTM.
nan rang me.
i was sooooo happpy
i was thinking bout him the whole day
he is doing fine apart from misssing me and his freedom.
we then head jurong east pool.
it was coool and simple day
exhausting yet fuuuunnn
i love it.

on the third day which is today,
naz and shaz meet me at my void deck to pass me my stuffff
we ended up gettting bubble tea and lepak.
great laughter
and spare my from that guys talk.
tak perluuuuuu!!!!!!

thats is..
i chatted with nan
quite long on the fone.
i misss him badly..
im sooo looking forward for friday next weeek.
im getting use to being by the fone waiting for his callls everyday.
i love u baby.
you're my pillar and strenght.

Wednesday, October 8, 2008

i met einn and sheila at bonlay :)
i was messed up.
i lose appetite.
i havent had a proper meal since yesterday
i miss nan. badly.

im sooo glad u callled me just now.
im sooo glad din make me feeel so much better
but your voice beats it all..
u toook away alll that pain im feeling..
i love u baby.
i eat my medicine tomorrow.

**noted..
we were posing for einn's cam just now
we wanted to snap pictures of us holding ciggies and having smoke effects (kirekan vogue)
till that shit fcuked up kid passed by
and get the darn wrong idea (whatever siak)
your life is pretty much messed up
you're just jealous of what im getting now without having to work that hard for it (if u tink dat way)
dont act and make it sound that you care
you dont.
you one little messed up faggot who is envious of my almost perfect life.
i pity u.
try harder to bring me down and tarnish my reputation
even if u feeel that u succeded, well you dont.
i wont let u bring me down, especially a little faggot like you.
you're pathetic :)

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its gonna be my entry..

Tuesday, October 7, 2008

i woke up early in the morning to rush to the supermarket.
i managed to grab all those things needed for his camp.
we had breakfast at mcdonalds but havent really have the appetite to eat.
i was more in the daze.

reached HTA,
the enlistee were separated from us.
left his mom and dad and me.

there were talks or so call briefing
i saw loads of familiar faces..
hilmi, hazary, hassan (im wondering how the hell he could become a drill instructor, angkat agaknye, whatever ekh)
i was wondering where are all my friends..
rasul, anoh, din, zaki..
hmmm

we went for lunch and we're allowed to have lunch together with the enlistee (nan)
i saw din, la, naz & apish
hahaha, small world.

the food

after looking around the bunks and stuff..
not that bad.
proper bed, closet, laundry room, vending machines and recreation centre(aircon)
im sure he'll get thru this.
anyway, he manage to sign on and i guess his pay would be like a regular policemen.
yay!
but he have to gain another 2 kg more.

it was hard having to part with nan for 10days.
i have to get thru this and will get thru it.
i'll just wait, and wait for his return.
i cant wait. hahahaaaaaaaaaaa
i want him back now.
k diam.
i'll wait. 17th october.
hehehee

well anywae..
we went jln rayer yesterday
i wanted to cancel it since sheila and einn couldnt make it.
but it was sweet to see yan and gf, hisham and gf, qader and izzat making the extra effort to come along with us.
we managed to psycho hisham to drive naz hyundai trajet.
poor nan, naz and shaz have to take the bike.

the mood was kinda dampened when they came late (extremely late)
i rang fahmy, shasha and shasha ring ad at shaz' place
and they just awake. wth.
we were kinda pissed.
we played the waiting game at shaz, mine and yan'z place.
i almost blasted at yan's place and everybody tooo..
please be early next time.

well anywae..
it was FUN!
hisham great driver or wad.
hahahaaaa
some pictures.

in the car

shaz, qader and hisham at shaz'

nan impersonating naz

my house!

naz the rider, makcik shaz the pillan

dah mcm hindustan.

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