i started on my job recently..
it was okay.
all i do was sit and sit and sit.
my permanent buddy came just now.
it was alright.

my working schedule is fine but accomodating with nan's is hard.
girls who wants to be with their boyfriends most of the time will understand this.

and i swear, that im so tired of trying too hard.
truth, i want to be with him whenever i can.
and if i couldnt, its up to him to be with me or not.
it hurts to the max when you said that.
though you claimed that you said that under different circumstancees..

its your turn.
its up to you.
nothing is enough in a relationship..
but im just tired.
im fighting my guts out with you just to meet you, and spend time with you.
haish.

and now,
im done. with everything.

i cried when i promise myself never to shed tears.
i hurt myself when i promise to protect myself.
the insults, sarcasm and all the mean things that you and your friend poured on me..
brings me back to square one that he had placed me.
words kill.

and here i am again.
square one.
useless.