i reallly don understand me.

a guy who makes me cry, degrade me, insult me, humiliates me, hurt me so much..
yes im still with him.
he who affliates me with the word irritating&immature
he who i need to make an appointment to meet.

i seriously don see the point of me saying sorry so that your work wont be affected or you will have the appetite to eat. cause you dont gave a shit wherever i am when you want to hurt me or make me cry.

how many times have i turn my back on you, how many times have you turnned you back on me?? countless boy.

why do i still wear the ring when i have to fight for your time?
its as good as me being your friend, like shaz naz or whoever.
why do i waste so much of my time being faithful to you when you hardly have the time for me?
WHY? when you are so calculative with the time you spend with me??

im wasting my youth away.
i see no future with you.
our plan for engagement seems like a dream to me.
everything is becoming so unrealistic even after we got our permanent jobs.

why do you only say sorry when i said sorry?
i have feelings nan.
and i hate it when you affiliate those feelings with irritating & immature.

what does murny do to get your attention.
to get you to send countless messages on friendster and on the cell phone.
to get you to wait on her at her school gate or to get you to hopeless hope that she get back to you?

and how do i have scandals without giving a shit about your feeling, like how you hurt me. and still can sleep peacefully at night. how the hell i do that.

i hate you nann. i hate it when i have to fight for youe attention.
i hate it when im feeling this way..i really see no point.