My mind is in a myst, manipulating my every inch of my soul to feel. All this feeling that i nvr tot exist was felt. a feeling that i am unaware of. a feeling thats hard to describe. i feel sad, lost at the same time irritated, angry left forsaken by my own tots my own heart my own soul. im in this oblivion in my heart without a tot to ani1. this heart crumble but i felt no tears yet tears drip from this very eyes that see nuting but yet truth. Sometimes, truth just hurt. sometimes, its beter no to see truth. funny isn't it, how god gave us brain to think yet we were groom since young to follow a rule that we don't understand. weird how we are given a brain to tink yet many tink with their heart. I feel alone and lonely, yet...this is the way i want to feel for now. a space to think, a space to release this anger and sadness in a form of tots, plain tots of nutingless that make no sense yet makes me feel better.

We were groom since young to love and be love, how love shows happiness. love being a pinch of heaven. But we we'nt told about the sacrifice of it, the agony of it, the torment it make 2 lovers feel. a change in each other that makes one remembering the past n love it.. the past of us...i wish we will go back to that love... i wish we are not like this..where were our plain childish innocent love that grew over the days w/o the presence of possesive but the presence of trust in each other? Trust and faith is all i ask from u. I hope that day will come where we truly understand wat love really is..wats the real meaning of sacrifice... i hope both us will. i still love u n care for u...my heart wish only to be embraced by ur love..my tots wish only to be embrace by ur trust..my soul wish only to be embrace by ur faith.. till the day that we plan to meet.. I LOVE YOU FAZ