im not good with words.

eversince we promise to hold each other hands and never to let go..we have never been apart even for a day.
even when youre doing your bmt, you would still call me at the end of the day to aid the feeling of missing each other.
its beeen 2 days..
48 hours, without you.
ive beeen on my own eversince we parted that day.

i feel so lost without you.
i feel so imcomplete without you.
i don feel freedom but i feel suffocated without you.
you are like my air and oxygen.
i neeed you to be there for me if not physically but in other aspects.
i tried occupying myself with work and friends but when everything end..my heart still aches for you.
im counting down days to meeet you so i could hug you and kiss you and just hold on to you.
only god knows how much i miss you and wish that you would appear right before myeyes.
i really miss you.
though its only 2 days,
i realised how much impact youve made to my life,
how your presence make so much different to me..
those little little gestures you did for me..
now that im without it..i feel like a lost child.
i feeel that im so handicappped without you..

no one could make smile and happy apart from you..
yes im smiling, laughing..
but deep inside..i still want you to be close to me..

i hate going thru this..
but if its fir the best of us in the future..
ill be strong..
idk how but i stay strong for us.

so much as you wants things to be like in the past..
when our love is pure and sinccere, putting aside possesiveness and not trusting..
i want it that way too.
i miss the past baby..
i miss the orea donut and the chocolate milk tea.
i miss the movie marathon we use to have..
i miss just sitting down doing nothing and be in your arms.
i miss talking about religion with you..
i miss you so much nan.
i reali do.
you will always be my bestfriend, my boyfriend, my soulmate.

and till the day we planned to meet..
I LOVE YOU TOO NAN.
i really do.